Meditation Reflection Day 1 (Blast Off)

OK, welcome to 'My Daily Meditation Blog' to you all. Thanks for taking the time to read and join me on this quest to delve deeper into the mind.

I suppose the big question is why am I taking the time to meditate twice daily and write about my experiences?

This is because something inside of me is telling me this is necessary for my mental well-being and a vital element in trying to become the best version of myself that I can possible be.

I know, all of this might sound incredibly self-indulgent to you, but I can tell you straight, I know the time is right for me to take control of my mental state, even if it's only for a few minutes per day.

You see, my mind has become cluttered over the years. Clutter with work, cluttered with a a confused sense of self, cluttered with hazy ideas about other people, what they represent and their worth to me, and most of all cluttered with the incessant chatter that accompanies the aftermath of drinking alcohol.

Thus, if you find yourself relating to anything I've just said, then join me everyday right here at this blog daily, where I though meditation and reflection try to sift through the muddy leftovers of my thoughts and piece together what is going on in my head and, more importantly, shines a beam of clarity on my existence.

Hopefully, with this increased awareness, I'll be able to become a better person and keep my deeply ingrained behavioral pattern loops at bay.

So, there you have it for day 1. Please join me on this journey, for a journey it will be. One filled with the usual ups and downs, thrills and chills that life throws in our direction. For this to work, I need a support group around me, one that is there to leave comments and tell me how things are going with their practice and communicate in a non-judgmental way their thoughts and feelings.

I believe together we can do this. This is the first step in a long mission leading to future shining with a pure light. I can see it when I close my eyes now. A light so bright that it drowns out all the sadness and self-loathing, all the judging and hate. This light with daily practice will prevail and soak our lives with its soothing goodness.

So, without getting to hippy at this time of the morning, I hope to see you all soon. As a wise man once said, together we are stronger. Or some thing like that anyway.

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